hopefully, spent the first 2/3rd of my life being underweight XD. I’m barely in normal weight now
When I die, I will challenge Death to a game of a Go which will last until the heat death of the universe. At least that’s my plan.
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Let’s be realistic. I hope I’ll fight until the last dame, and then I’ll bow and thank for the good game.
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Tell him to let you go if you win :3
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With or without handicap?
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I probably wouldn’t worry about it. Is there much to do after the heat death of the universe?
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I assume you’re referring to this? 
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I wasn’t sure where the idea came from, but likely yes 
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Even match but no time limit. Naturally I’ll take a millennium or three for each move.
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Also this, xkcd: Ultimate Game
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Probably for life. It’s a simple but effective form of sophisticated entertainment, after all.
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What’s that 
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In Shabi and a matter of days or months I was competitive until 5 years ago then I played Shabi for fun and from the beginning of 2023 to the end of 2024 I played the best in my life my game could reach a level of 5-7 dan because I made myself play more solo. It depends on the person’s soul and how much and where he plays that day
Oh this one, I didn’t study in english so couldn’t recognise 
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Good to see this.
I have a complicated relationship with Go. I have been playing since before Alpha go, by a year or so, I imagine. But I have spent more time away from the board than actually on the board studying and playing the game.
I had to go through different services and organisations after I was homeless before this, which left me in a situation where I didn’t have access to the internet on a regular basis, and this was before I knew about OGS too.
Since then, Life has happened, both ups and downs, with some of those downs being lower than I care to mention or delve into any real depth about; suffice it to say, those experiences have left me scared in ways that are difficult to truly express.
Mental health… has always been a struggle for me. And as such, and with the person I am, being neurodivergent, I tend to hyperfixate on things very intensely and in short bursts of time. There was a time I was playing more than 20 games of Go a day. Doing more than a thousand go problems a day, and just absolutely abusing myself in the process.
After such periods, I would burn out and sink into long depressive cycles, where I couldn’t even look at a go board and not feel utterly worthless.
Indeed, these burnout times are long. Some lasted for years, where I wouldn’t even consider playing correspondence games.
That said…in the years since, I’ve learned to get a better handle of myself, and while I still burn out after periods of infatuation with the game, I do so in a much healthier way, opting to take a step back before I let myself get consumed by my mental health issues, and throw me into a deep depressive cycle. I also maintain my corro games, and have been doing so for more than five years now… I’m still an active participant in the “through the years long correspondence tournament”, which was set up, as many know, during COVID.
For me… it is obsession, it’s not a wrong word to use, even if it only applies in a light kind of way… it still no less describes the pull I feel toward the game. There is only one other game that does that, and even it cannot come close to the sensation I feel playing Go. That other game is called Rocket League.
Go, however… it just… it’s special. There is no other way to phrase it. If I had to give up ever playing any other game in existence, even games whose stories I’m deeply invested in, I would give them up in a heartbeat to keep Go.
And actually… now that I’m able to control my mental health as well as I currently do… that infatuation from before has been tempered, and will last me the rest of my life. There is no other game like Go; there is no other game that makes me feel as connected, as complete, and as present in the moment as Go makes me feel. The sensation of one mind being pitted against another in a complex mental joust of supremacy on the board, doing your best to glean as much insight as you can from move to move and weighing that against the knowledge and personal ability to read the game… it just hits different.
In another life, had I started playing Go when I was much younger, then I’d have loved to have been a Pro player.
I can wax poetically about Go until the heat death of the universe…and while I do not hold any beliefs in and of the Divine, if indeed it does exist, Hell, would be existing without the chance to ever play go again.
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I wish, if I found out about Go even 4-5 years prior I’d hope to become the first pro from my country.
Now I’m just teaching with the hope someone else takes the flag and run forward.
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I may not become a pro. but i can certainly become stronger than i am right now. that said, id also love to teach Go, but i just dont feel like im in a good position to do so. I can teach the basics and a bit extra, but i dont feel internally qualified enough to teach others…not yet.
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