Hello redflex
I do not have the time to mentor you in person, but I’ve been working on a series of articles that tries to break down the various complex aspects of the 19x19 game in a way that helps beginners to understand the game. It’s a LOT of reading, but if you take the articles one at a time, and focus on those elements in your games, you can hopefully begin unlocking those abilities for yourself.
Good luck!
Introduction: Making Sense of Go
Part 3: Playing a Balanced Opening